And so it begins

From just looking at me, you wouldn't guess I had this much crap going on all at the same time. It is for this reason that I'm going to attempt to put all this down, get my story straight, then perhaps move on to publishing or something similar.

Alright, in no particular order, here's what's up. I have a job, which pays the bills to a degree, but it isn't the same as it once was. I'm not talking about a honeymoon period where everything is great and then you wake up and your job sucks, I'm talking about my boss leaving, then a new boss was hired in his place.

The old boss was patient and sensical. He knew what he knew and more importantly, he knew what he didn't know. He would listen and gather facts and make a decision based on what he learned, flavored with gut instinct. I respected my first boss. He was truly someone who could lead.

The current guy in the boss position is a complete jackass. He doesn't pay attention to any opinions or anything that he doesn't say, he gets things wrong all the time, and he's hardly around to help if and when we do need him.

I work in a company where computers are on every desk, in every room, and everyone uses them to complete their tasks. I'm a system engineer, which basically means that I maintain the computers, servers, network, phones, building, lamps, t1s, etc. If it plugs in, I'm responsible for it. Even if it doesn't plug in, if someone has a problem with it, I have to be able to take it apart, and make it work.

Basically, my new boss sucks, and I want him gone. But he won't be gone, so I'm looking. Looking for a new job isn't all that great in the technical field right now. Especially where I'm located. So I get on a few search sites, send my resume to friends in the field, etc etc. But no bites yet. I'm still hoping.

I'm married, and have a daughter who is turning three in November. She's so smart, cute, and everything that anyone ever wanted out of a child. She's the reason I wake up in the morning and drag my ass to work every day.

My wife is also pregnant with our second baby, a boy, who is due in December. She's poking out pretty far at this point, and is having some issues keeping up with our daughter. She had a contract job earlier this year, but that's over now, and I just can't think of sending her out to find a job. So I found a second job to supplement our funds until next year, or if I can find something way better out there.

So now I work for a book store in my off hours. Discounts are nice, but the paycheck isn't all that hot. It just makes me more motivated to go out and get something better.

I've started taking a maintenance drug called Effexor recently. I went to a shrink because I was having panic attacks, and over the course of six months of therapy, I realized that I was depressed and had lots of anxiety (Having a job like this one will do that to a guy).

Effexor is weird. It doesn't make me happy, but it doesn't let me be sad. I'm just sorta 'normalized'. I'm in the middle of the broad spectrum. I used to have really high highs and very very low lows... Now I'm just at an even keel all day long. It's weird, but I deal with it.

My car is awesome. I love it. A five speed jetta with dark ass windows all around. It makes me happy to drive again. After driving lots of different cars in my life, I'm finally content with what I'm in. It's quick enough to get me out of tight jams, but safe enough for me to drive my family around. Only problem is that it's getting to the point where I need a tune up and new tires, and that shit costs money, yo. So it's gonna be tight for a while.

My parents are odd. They never really had any friends. They have been living close to my house for a few years now, and they've decided to move to a state very far away, and get jobs that are totally different than what they're used to doing. I don't understand, maybe it's some midlife crisis thing. I hope I don't get that way when I'm older....

I have three cats, all of which are deadly weapons. Actually, only one is dangerous, the other two are pretty casual. My ninja cat was "played" with very heavily when he was a kitten by myself and all my friends, so now he's fully trained on attacking and whatnot. He's so gentle with my daughter, though. Weird how animals know that kind of thing.

Marraiges are coming up all over, it's so odd to have been married for three years and have all my friends just now catch up. Makes me feel old, but in a good way.